25/04/10 : Hmmmm.... so you must be thinking, what after the 100th day.....you would have to scroll 100 pages down.. OK..Now u dun have to cause I'll add the days content from the top.
OK..today I'll tell you few things about you which are silly but I love them a lot :
1. How you like working with screw drivers and hammers....I love the way you become a child then.. and I hate it cause you snatch away something I enjoy doing a lot too :p
2. How you within mins take ur hand on ur face, either to move ur hairs back, scratch your jaws or something like it.... u simply can't avoid it... I enjoy that
3. How you fell asleep in a nick of a momment... and yes those jerks... I've missed them from long :(
4. How like a child you love drinking milk all the time.....
5. You shop like a kid...
6. You love to decorate our home..
7. I am a die hard fan of the food you make...
8. I would still love coffee of your hand...
9. That verticle line on your nose... hahahahahah :p...its beautifull
10 . Your curly hairs and they always smell so good....
11. How every time the camera lence sees you, its focus increases.... u make the pics look gud..
12. The way u se Haan.... whenever I say..Jaaaaaan...
My list will go on....cause everything you do is special to me and really makes me love you more....and even most of the time turns me on :p.... hehehehe.... Babe.... Ur the one for me
N yes.... cricket ya football team to honi hi chahie ;)
Its not about your looks. Its not about your attitude, its also not about how you make me feel. Its about How I feel about you....
My life was fun, was rewarding and everything that one wants, but still at the outset, it had not what you would call...a heart of its own....
19/04/2010 : The day I first saw you, through the darkness, under the dim light of candle... you were that breez of cool air which knocked me out of my senses. Not only you looked amazing in that Yellow dress of yours, you also sounded highly intelectual ;). We spoke, we spoke of what I like, what you like and I got the feel that our likings are also same. I, and you know it your self, fell for your smile but.... amazing. Just what i needed to make my life even better. So, did I feel at that time that I wanted to marry you... no, I was not sure...what happened then...
20/04/2010 : Yes mam, that was 14th of May, amd this is 16th. I am all dressed to go out with you, Shirt, Pant and style.... all by my friends choice and courtcy :). The big spoiller being the scheduled interview at the MNC. Who was interested in that. It felt like I've been chained down. Just let me go...I cant waite to see you. No memories of how I got free but thank god, I did. So I call you up and in no time am there to pick you. Saket opens the door, my dissapointment. But was not late when u came out, in a stylish denim and full sleaves T. The wet look hairs as I have always loved them... u looked hot n man oh man..... u n me alone in that lift for the first time! Phew.... I was lucky that swet didn't start showing up on my forehead. I knew then n there, that my life had started taking a turn... to a place, I hoped it would be like my dreams....
OK, am sure we both gona remember this. I was shy, n so much shy that could not even ask you to wear the seatbelt, nor did I wear it myself.... and that day itself Mamu had to stop us at golibar maidan. 200 bucks is what he took. Kakde mall has forever been my freak out place for weekends, and now there was a girl who loved to go there everyday. You were the girl who spoke nonstop but no girlstuff. You also loved coffee....hmmm. I asked you, should we go bowling, and you readily accepted. Cool :). I played Ice Hokey 4 the first time there and it was fun loosing it.... after all, you were shining by eyes with your smile. It was fun like never before. We had pani puri n stuff there and again went back to MG. For a coffee at Barista. We had spoken by now of movies, music, our work and food. And you cant disagree... we felt compatible. I asked If I could have a pic of yours and you gave it to me. I love that one till date.
Now was the worst part, drop you back home. Something I wanted to do the least. Y did you always have to go? I have never been good with departures. I had a wonderfull evening. Dun know about yours, but wanted all my evenings to be the same way, I mean it to date... I dun get tierd. We had spent 5 hours or more together and each moment of it was somthing that I cherrish. You were definitly goin to stay in my mind for long. But more than that.... I did not want anyone else to come and see you anymore, why... I dont know. You had shown full optimism... So, I was left with the only choice for the next Step.
21/04/2010 : Came to write today, only to find out that how big a bum I am. Always aligating you without checking first. Saw you comment, and Jaan, I disagree. I am what you've turned me into and co-incidently today I was going to write exactly how.Comming to Life Part 1 - I had left for gujrat the other day... with the vindiction to win your heart... remotly if needed. Fool I was cause fate had decided the other way. The comming month was like crazy. Crazy as it coukd get. From the time we wake to early next morning... we spoke all the time. We spoke of all the things. We knew about each breath the other had taken. It was about my relative, your relatives, school teachers, freind's marriges, TLs, PMs and more thn that trying to make sure that we win the battle of who loves whome the more. Who keeps the phone...not me, not me. I would die to see you, see your glimps. But yes... whatever was, was for sure magicle. Best time ever. Yes, I had totly lost my mind ;). But I was also sure of 1 thing.... this is what I want and I assumed, assumed it is for ever....or would be even better..I was for real, now Comming to Life.
22/04/10 : It was day n day getting difficult to stay away from you. Nothing could sto
p me from comming to you now. I booked my tickets from Gujrat to Mumbai and was Up UP n away :) . Comming to Life Part 2 - I dun know how time flew and dun remember a moment when I was not thinking about you. Your words were ringing in my ears as I jumped from plane to airport to cab and more. I reached pune, went straight shopping. What..... what is that I should get you...dress..no..have not been with you yet to know your choice. Jewellry...same thing. Got you a perfume, some chocklet (for the heart) and a cute dogy. A knock on your door and there you are, standing in front of me in a gorgious saree...stunned I just stood their. My heart was beeting faster than I can drive... and yes I was shaking. Untill,, untill you hugged me for the first time.... Blood rushed to all parts of my body and this is what changed everything. I was in Love..... You had given me a feeling, I had never experienced. A sence of security, that there was some one who loves me, loves me without boundries...I, till this point in time, was living in a life which was incomplete. I was living unaware of the real feelings. I was born that day, born again, and your's the face I saw first. Now, you can understand why am I so afraid of moments when you are not around, I feel am in a strange world....Jaan! I want to relive that moment..day n day...everyday.
The watch you gave me.... I can not think of any other watch in the world that would fit better in my choice. Its a part of me now. It always keeps me company, when you r not around... and I relive the day, everyday by just looking at it. This was the point... I had completly given myself in...this was the point which sealed both of our fates.... the rest of the day... is still in front of my eyes, as if it was going on right now. And Jaan... we still have to complete watching the movie ;). Love you.
23/04/10 : Time goes by and things change and many a times we dun remember what made things change. Or how in the first place things were like that. I keep saying, I am the man you made me... its very true, how? Here is how..... I dun know if you remember each conversation we had when I was in gujrat or not, but I do....the words and the period are fresh in my mind and am what I am beacuse of that. I got love from you.... unlike anything. I always felt that, my love is smaller in front of you and I would never be able to live up to your mark. The happiness you gave me....was uncomparable. You made me make promises... to never leave you. I did make it, but not understanding the true meaning of it. But one thing was for sure... I meant it, then and there. I do believe, that there can not be anyone who cares about others more than you. Hmmm... I might have said the opposit to you, but I do believe it. You have taught me how to live for other and here, its not others....its my own family, my parents, brother and most importantly You. If am strong, to bear any thing, its because of you, if am weak in front of you, its again, because of you. Now too, I know, that I have your support, in whatever I do, you may say it or not. You are hurt each time, am hurt, you say it or not. This makes me week, this makes me strong. Am week when I see pain in you, I am strong when I make myself ready to change things, am week again when I know.....its not just in my hand to change anything. But you know what.....am the strongest, when it comes to keep loving you. Am the strongest, when its about protecting my future with you and non other....I am. And am never gona let this change. Ther were and will be times, You might find me rude , might find me imposing things on you....over-protective, insecure and many other things. Am not perfect... not even close and all this would be for that moment...only momment. Whats forever is.....I love you, need you, you are my ego, my pride, my child and will go to any extend to keep it that way. I Promise!
24/04/10 : Jaan, you are the one who has always rocked my world. Fun is because of you. You have always taken care of what I like and what I dont, always tries to make me halpy and always made me calm and peacefull. And I have always made sure to take all the fun out of your life :P. Jaan I miss you here and hate this place..... Counting each day.. waiting fr 13th....Love you. 
Just having some fun with my cell. Its soo cool and so easy to use. And fun too... ex.... ;)
